what the fuck? i'll kill them,i swear.if they ever say that im not studying or that im against studying from two pm to seven pm i'll rip their faces off.cause i've been trying not only not play on computer but also not to touch it and they want to take it away from me? if that actually happens,im out off here.im just taking all the books,all my clothes and im going somewhere else.cause i won't study for nothing.especially if i don't have any tests or anything next day.
i have no books to read except the shitty required reading for school.and that's what they're calling literature.i read what i want and i won't read those 'adult' books cause im 14,not 34.if i want to read teenage books i'll read them.by the way,books about animes don't exist mom.
and what kind of world are they talking about? from all of their stories and speeches i know what reality is like.i mean,otherwise they'd told me that life is like field of butterflies like other parents tell to their children.and i know what it's like to be invisible and bullied and everything.but i don't give a shit about it all.if i'd give a fuck it would be best for me to kill myself.why do should i care? to fight? what for? better life? i want to go to america,japan and everywhere else.and what,im fighting so they could tell me one day that i can't go there? see,that's the reason why i don't give a damn.i know well what is it gonna be and what would it be.

i think it was bad for me to watch perfect blue after all.it's like i was paranoid all day.i hate that feeling.even now,i can't look into room of my parents..
ahh,i hate the fact that im so laaazy and that i forget this so easily.
soo,i will seriously kill everyone in my class.im not weak.i could kick their asses if i want to but im too tired every day..anyway,im doing those exercises for my spine and it's really hard so for 5 months i'll beat them up.all of them.even girls.except for one.she's going on karate and judo eheh..he.
and that bitch teacher of serbian.ughhhhhrr i just want to rip her face off.
and i don't what to do on twitter or even here.my last couple of days are pretty..boring.im not doing anything.nothing is happening.

but those questions i get on formspring every day are great,really! i love them.and i love the people who send them.i mean,i thought formspring is place where only popular kind ask each other anonymous.but there are actually smart and kind people.

ohh i haven't write for 3 days..man.w-well it's not like i had anything to write..
i hate my class so much.what fucking friends they are.today,on geography someone was texting and teacher heard that someone got message.of course,she asked who had the phone and no one replied.she was angry and said that she'll mention it on teachers' council.and we were already chosed for the worst class in school.some of us even have the rebuke.and we find out that it was a sick kid in our clas (problems with heart).we said to our homeroom teacher and was like okay,nevermind.
we were so angry.gosh.i mean,yeah he's ill and everything but that doesn't mean he isn't our friend god..we're always protecting him,always and he couldn't say it.man,the teacher wouldn't do anything to him.

of course i haven't done anything smart today.b-buut,i changed songs on my mp4 and found some new Lana Del Reys songs hehe.♥
also,i was thinking about high school next year.i don't know should i go to hs in my city or somewhere else.i don't know.im scared since my best friend is going in other town.i would go too but im scared of meeting new people and showing my weakness to them.and still i don't wanna stay here cause i hate them all.goshh such a hard decision.
and i got questions today:
'what kind of person would be totally opposite of you?'
i can't answer it cause sometimes i feel like there are two me in this body.i mean,sometimes i can be shy and quiet but sometimes im loud and outgoing.oh yeah,probably the only thing is that she would hate animals and art and books.yeah.

ahh,it's finally friday.everything is perfect except the fact that i have to do exercises now hehe.but at least i'll get some sleep tonight.
im still sick buut i hope i'll be better tomorrow.
oh yeah i watched kung fu panda while ago.i love that movie.i love kung fu.i love pandas.
i wish i could be kung fu master ahh.

i screwed up my grades this year again.my parents were talking the same story again.im so sick of listening to it but then again i don't study.im really shitty daughter.
and i have to do exercises for my spine again.but im sick,i don't know how the fuck will i do them.
and i decided to write once a day,usually at this time so i could just let it all flow about my day.

im kind of upset i didn't make to write on halloween.i was doing a project with friend.
school was terrible of course but im trying to relax listening to one ok rock.i love them.
ahh,i saw the boy i used to like today.maybe i still do.he's kind of an ass but we love same music and have same opinion on some things,it's not easy to ignore..
and i had different hairstyle today,everybody said that im cute gosh.
im sick also.